How great is our god

Monday, September 04, 2006

okay.lil matthias (my cousin) was like BLEEDING just now.a cut t the mouth so yea.it bled quite a bit, but only for a while.like HOW GROSS CAN the blood was on my bros arm.ohwells.i was touched when he came crying t me.hahaha.he was okay after eating porridge.

anw nows like a crucial moment.at my cousins house now, and the adults are trying t decide what t do w the children.cuz y'all know that my aunt has breast cancer yea.and there're like 8 children.WHO MAKE WAAAAY TOO MUCH NOISE.so yeah.2weeks ago 3 of them were sent t stay w my granparents in malacca.and my dad wanted 4 of them to go this time.but they refused cuz its like totally boring.and my dad was trying to coax them by telling them he'd repair the com, but actl i think thats a worse idea.then all four of them would fight over a single com, and the com'll die agn.hahaha.i think my dad talked to justin (fourth oldest, 11) cuz he thought he'd be mature enough t agree.apparently not.my dad's first priorty is to unload my aunt and uncle of as much burden as possible, and he definitely thinks that the children shld understand what their mum is going through and do their best to help by getting out of the way.considering the way justin's been helping out ard the house, i too thought he'd be able to accept the decision.but he's still a kid lah.i think even if i were a year older i'd still fuss.after all, in the words of lilo and stitch, ohana means family.family means nobody gets left behind or forgotten. but i guess the younger kids' reason for not wanting to go is less pure than that.its like so boring at malacca.no other children besides themselves.

i suggested to my dad that we could bring them to singapore.im more than willing to sacrifice a few marks off eoys although belle tan took great pains and spent 45 mins having a heart t heart w me abt my studies.sigh.i posted my results up and you guys have seen it.bottomline is im not even doing well across the level, let alone sy class.that same pressure agn.i hate sy for that.oh yucks, baby cried agn.

anw yeah.about the sg thing.i thought that since justins under 12, all four of them can travel under my dads passport.
dad: no it has to be under their own father's passport.
me being naive: then we can just take his passport!he's not going anywhere right.
dad: the father has to come along!

ohwells.so thats impossible. i really admire my uncle. he's being doing a 24hr watch over my aunt, nvr leaving her side.and both of them have gotten so thin tgt.you can see the skin sagging off him, its like my grandfather's skin. i would QUEUE for a guy whos so faithful and loyal.like a dog.HEH.kidding.

my mums been chairing a conference with michael, michel, joshua for really long now.i listened abit, NOT EAVESDROPPING OKAY.i was washing up in the toilet.she was telling them that they have t share their feelings among each other.i know this has all been taking a toll esp on michel, cuz shes the main babysitter.with me here, there're 5 of us in her room.chairo, philia and matthias are the 3 youngest.and it can be quite taxing taking care of them.it robs her sleep.like ive only been here such a short while, and i find it quite mafan when they start crying in the middle of the night.quite easy to get matt back t sleep though.just give him a bottle and pat him.but the problem comes when they have a shit overload.no kidding.like 2nights ago, i awoke to discover philia playing w shit.gross.they're wearing pampers, but i think we need XXXXXXL.so the shit doesnt leak.sigh.michels cool, she can take all the shit they throw at her.HAHA.wth.im so lacking in that area.mich left me to clean philia up.cuz philia threw up on the bed and yeah.it was a huge mess.so she was taking care of matt and cleaning up the bed, and i took philia to the toilet.i holding her up t the sink and turning on the tap, but she didnt know how t wash it off her hands.so then i took tissue and wet it and tried to clean it off.but it was ineffective of course.so i was like heck, i dont care if you dont wanna bathe so i stripped her and turned on the heater.but she refused t get into the shower.listens to michel only.ohwells in the end we got her cleaned up.

im gonna leave soon.need to pack and say byebye.sighh.

trembling at His voice,12:40 PM
You are worthy of our praise